Well my life has been transformed by reading and I know firsthand how books can change your life.There are many things and experiences that can change the direction of someone’s life. For me the turning point was my marriage. I would like to share some of the incidents that changed the direction of my life. To tell how real it was years ago, I will quote some excerpts from my diary-
September 2001: The argument turned violent -he just dragged me by my hair and beat me on my shoulders until it turned black and blue.
November 2001: He threatened to call the cops accusing that my brother was abusing my daughter. When I begged him not to do that, he asked me to break all relationship with my brother.
January 2002: He always keeps commenting on how ugly I looked inside and outside.
March 2002: He keeps degrading my family and saying bad things about them.
April 2002: Called the cops saying that I need to leave the house because he cannot tolerate me.
June 2002: Spits at me, drags me by hair, put a knife on throat and threatens to kill me. I run away and return back home after a 2 days with my parents.
September 2002: Tried to strangle me and hit me. My 5 year old dragged him away from me saying “daddy please don’t hit mommy”.
That was my wakeup call. I took charge of things because of what I saw: Five years old daughter trying to protect me, when it was my responsibility to keep her safe. I called 911 and got the restraining order.
The verbal and physical abuse left scars that influenced every part of my life and damaged my self-esteem. I was filled with negative emotions, anger and sadness. I found no answers to my questions– WHY DID HE DO THIS TO ME?
In December 2002 during Christmas break I walked into the library and found the book on the stacks and read it.
There’s a Spiritual Solution to Every Problem by Wayne W.Dyer.
Wayne Dyer quotes the prayer of St. Francis of Assisi – which gave solace to my bruised heart and soul.
Lord, make me an instrument of your peace,
Where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury, pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
where there is sadness, joy;
O Divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console;
to be understood as to understand;
to be loved as to love.
For it is in giving that we receive;
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned;
and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life.
Reading the book I was able to recognize that the abuse wasn’t a result of my deficiencies, but a result of my abuser’s defects. I was able to let go of the hatred and console myself. It took years to heal but this book sowed the seeds for a new beginning.
I survived. I am stronger and wiser now. It took a lot of hard and desperate years to heal but I can finally say that I found myself again, and I ‘m happy with who I am and what I’ve accomplished. I have a beautiful talented daughter, a house with lovable pets and job in a profession I am passionate about. Like a fairy tale ending happily ever after- I am leading the life I was destined to live.
In Books Do Transform Lives